~ monotonous ~

well thts how i'm right, been like tht for sometime, i have no say in whts happenin around me. Is there any way of changing this?!?! i dont know where to start and do what to change my life. its another monotonous week, been like this ever since i cant remember. I'm way too adrenaline pumped for the job i do, but i stil sit here complaining and do nothin about it. why? cos i got bills to pay cos of my flamboyant life style(a leo so wht can i say). so tryin to sort that out. so whats in the rest of my life, me let me see, weekdays this is my routine, on a normal day i would wake up about 10, just enough time to roll off ma throne(bed) and ma sip down coffee, watch abit of tv and my new(couple of days old habit) work somethin on my lappie(laptop) mess around while im watchin tv n coffee. by 11 time to get ma shirt ironed(pain in the *** work) cant i have the shirts ironed as n when its washed. then usual, B*G, shower, n on the wy to office i might get to see some birds, if im lucky two/three the most. OFFICE to me is like a literal sense of walkin into hell, u have to be on the alert the min u step cos there is so many ppl who just wants to eat u up cos they can take ur place. god i hate politics, i so badly wanna do ppl some return but i'd guess there'll be no difference between me n them. so office is at large probably around 500+, there is 3 shifts, morning(8-2) UK(12.30-9.30, which i work in) uk offline(1.30-10.30) and night(6 - 2). in ma dept its cut down to 12, so i have to spend 9hrs(8 at most in tht atmosphere) so the 12 breaks down to the male female ratio ofs: 4:8, sadly i don get ma fingers involved in office and nothin of my taste, all gampathalanawa ype(a word which i learnt after coming to this office, prev guys use this to call latha, goday, barbie streotype grls) there is only a couple of ppl who i can lay back with, rest of em im up on ma feet with them and i make sure i run their blood flow very well by frustating them.

so leaving that, i nicely have the secluded corner spot in the office, which is like where there is least of A/C gets to(there has been some major heated up argument about this and the issue is with the head of asian operation) comprising that on hand with privacy and a nice steal cupboard to rest my head when i want to doze off.. hehe :D i leisurely surf, read blogs, comment em, check xtra mail, hmm wht else, ahhh yes music download, although of lately tht has been cut out as the site i use to be gettin ma rips from has been shut down :'( poor poor me. can i have some sympathy pls?!?!? a lonely kid in the block with ferocious mosters(colleagues) around cant i have atleast some entertainment. like i said im too adrenaline pumped for this job, this office. seriously, i use to be like the left out kid a year and half back or right when i started, im 21, 2 1/2 yrs back, just 18(not right out of skool though) and rest of the ppl wre on avg 25+, ahaha hows tht? so now i've aged up and the avg has come down to 20.. now im feeling old (jeeesss) so after all tht i when i look up the roster sheet on the job im suppose to be doing. if i feel like it or someother appointment at night n i hav to get outta office early i get right down to work or a lil more of entertainment(personal) i hate the office small talk as well, ppl say i need to smile once in a while.

then around 4/5 somtimes even 6 work work work work work, continous till 9.30, wrap up ma stuff and sign off. off to home, where there'll be some thing to eat on my most lucky days if my mom is at home. watch tc while im having dinner. then lazin around till 10 or 11 unless im just impatient to watch a movie or series(DVD, thank god for techno, i don have to watch a series for weeks n weeks, i'd get bored). off to bed at about 1/2 depending on wht im watchin, lately its 2 series im watchin, Lword(how many have caught this i dont know) & NIPTUCK, its a plastic surgery cover, fav line in that, "so tell me what dont you like about yourself today?". off to bed, check up for final msgs, use it as a torch actually, snug into bed and dream away(i dont sometimes remember half the things, although sometimes i've able to bend my dream the way i want it to be..which makes me kinda nauseous sometimes) wake up as if it was a nightmare.

so thats how it is for the 5 days of week, and my weekends are horrid sometime worse than the weekdays, i wish there was no weekends, just work work work get paid, work work work work, get more paid and inbetween spend all that and make good use of my cc as well. so im laying it out here. peeps throw over ur comments... and il let u knw wht happens