~ perspective, hope, love, n wht not ~

how you view something, pov of someone, how you place urself. lately i've lost the perspective in my life. when someone leaves you to be far, the perspective changed. to me its been changing for as long as i've known. how does perspective affect yours? when there is uncertainity of the path thats laid before you becomes blurry or unstable, when u thought everythin has been set out, somethin along the way changes the course or draws ur attention away from where you want to be. how do use ur perspective to be able to see the bigger picture.

lately i've not been myself, too much emptiness. why is that when i get too close to someone they are taken away. its just happenin all over. when i started my long distance, i knew it was difficult, but never imagined if wud be so hard. i mean everything around us has changed. guess im taking my time to take everythin into me. but wht if i end being too late to make anythin for u. would be alright if i don get the chance again to be with you. everything has become so uncertain. i've never waited for anyone as much i've waited for u. i've never given so much of myself for anyone else in my life. when my whole perspective of love, relationship, companionship, life changed everythin in line with you. now your taken away from me. my mind keeps saying that everything is going to be alright.

i've never hoped for anythin in my life. while grew, i made myself a hard head, any emotion that could make me weak out not in me. but u showed me there is nothin wrong in having some for a better day. there is only hope that you'd be with me. with everythin else going wrong around me, only thing keeping me on track is you. sometimes lonliness creeps too much. i just get petrified when i think whats going to happen to tomorrow. i know your parents are never goin accept whats between, yet i hold your arm. everyone tells me im too young to be in a serious relationship. well i've run the field for sometime now, i might be kid by age, but i've got my fair share of time to getting to play, find what you want for the rest of ur n not for the night.

i started to write on somethin, i've ended up with somethin else. my perspective has changed to see you wud be with me for a very long long time. to be there for u when u need me, in the right way. to hold you in my arms, n im too proud to take u out(i hope u know tht). im not the bad ass guy u knew when we were friends. u know i've changed myself for u. there is so much which i was yesterday which im not today. inside me there is the animal and the human. somehow u managed to make the human out of the animal. but sometimes i've scarred you. sorry wud help at al, just so u know i didnt mean to make it that way.

i guess the perspective changes n differs when both of us are on different sides of life n society. what am i goin to change alone? sometime soon maybe i shud understand that n accept that. but when ur young n in love i dont know give up. not again, not with you. ur just happen to be too much in me, aint goin to let go that easily.