~ behind curtains ~

i dont know why u got to hide behind curtains
wht can i do to make u come out of it
tell me how u feel for me
sittin up here dreaming about the pain n love
everythin seems to have changed
my body has forgotten how ur hands crush mine
how evertime ur lips meet mine sends shivers down my spine
ur baby soft skin rubbin mine cheek
but in my mind all too fresh to ever let it go
the smell of ur hair, ur kiss, ur skin
i still can feel the gloss on my neck before left me
how ur hands crushed me and held onto it longer
i never relaised that u wre goin to leave me
wanted to hold me one last time before never forever

im suppose to be stronger than this
what happened to my castle with all those high walls
where did it all go before you
u just stepped up and if all fell n tumbled
left u see the real me
behind the bad boy, the animal, lost cause
there was someone who believed in hope love and you
when everyone else was just another name just another number
u stood there until i walked and took u in my arms
someone i'd never forget in this life time
not even my soul would know to forget the happiness you gave
the time u've made smile when everythin fell apart
the deep look into ur eyes which gave me hope
your caring words and warmth that gave me love
and the friend that you gave me of urself
i can never forget the love which i had for you

what happened to the promises we made
we stick till the end no matter wht comes through
im still stickin to my end of the deal
waiting for you to pick me up where u left me
but the flight you took is just on one way ticket
no return no look back
just promsises and questions left unaswered
im here looking for the trace where i went wrong
maybe i wasnt the one who wre looking to take home
thought u knew that before we even started anything
has social staus, money, car, greener pasture bought ur love off me
did it settle our promises
everyone's got a price, everything got a price
i never could afford to buy u off that

days have passed me by n its been a year since u let go
it still feels likes yesterday ur voice ringig in my ear
your last cry i heard from you n i was a fool to say it be alright
all the while been the fool to believe in love
to believe somethin good as u wud ever last for ever in my life
there is a pain which crushes my heart each time i keep think abt us
wish it wud crush n flush the blood out of my heart
so it stops beating n let my lo$t $oul rest in peace
a wish no one can fulfill for me a eternal only which only u can put me to
i need to stop cryin over you, i need to stop thinkin abt us
u've moved on, it times for me to move on
not to someone else, but on with my life
u'd be fresh in my mind for longer than you know
i can't let anyone else take your place
there is not enough room to anyone
u've taken it all, stolen n lost it

~ its been a while ~

been running too wild, far too long
its easy to say im just 22 for now
to say its just the beginning n not the end
for all i know nobody fits ma shoes
cos im the animal iam
there is nothin i can do about it
its goin to be the wilder
im search of my end with no destiny

hating to have let go of u
but i had to, now regrettin n weepin over it
time to wake up from this
let go of ma love let go of the pain
let myself be the stranger iam
hearts so cold like u say
takin ma mind of you

with no feeling no emotions
its all the doubts and gaps fillin between me n u
there is nothin that you can do now to fill the gap
wish i can let my soul fly from this body
close my eyes n go to rest for ever
could you grant me the eternal rest

i didnt ask to you love me
i was fine before you swept the ground i was standing on
this life doesnt have no justice
why is that everytime i love its got to be taken away
there is nothin in my life which is goin to make me feel better
words cant heal ma pain nor stitch it back like how it was
just left me back n packed ur bags n flew far away

u cant say anythin now to make it right
whtevers done is goin to stay as it is
where ever ur right now, ur love is gone
its just me alone here, there is nothin u can abt it
u cant ask me to be a better man
you've for me stranded me and trapped in your web
i cant seem to walk away, i keep circling back
would i ever know the exist to this
spending time alone thinknin abt u n me

love aint enough this world to make a relationship work
u need everythin else for the love to work
i did go crazy every second i think about
when u left me lovestoned
thinkin about you use to love me
i cant wake up everythin thinkin how we spent time
just aint right no more cos everythings too far back
too long for you to remember

can u give me back the nights thinkin abt u
wondering if u'd be thinkin abt me
everythin so still here while i see u move fast across me
u've left me no number left me no name left me nothin
why am i sayin it now wht i shud have told u wen u left me
nothins goin to change, nobody can rewind
its gone far too away for me to reach
and i still cant seem to find the close
end it all for me, right now right here
this is to since a year you walked away n let me go
and the years of pain its going to be

~ still ~

still alive.. without a reason. waiting for the ending...
would fate bring my end or wud it be my own self
i have nothin left in this world
i have pain and a lil happiness left this heart
the happiness only seems to be dryin away each day
before i turn back to stone take me away